I announced to my peers that we should separate into smaller groups in order to address our ad-hoc situation. My suggestion was received differently amongst my classmates. Some people agreed, some people disagree, and some people seemed confused. I could feel the pressure building throughout the class. As I observed the class' chaos as we negotiated how we were going to go about getting the extra-credit-points, my initial idea to divide the class into groups was then, in my head, reinforced - I believed that there was no chance of the class making progress if we did not do so. Many of my classmates were very adamant about what they wanted as extra-credit points and what was the best away of going about acquiring them. It's hard to say, but I'm pretty sure that the immediate thing I told myself was "Vincent, some of the people in here may be a little more passionate about this process than you right now." At that point I stood down, without giving it much thought, and allowed someone else to be the leader of the entire class - I was willing to lead a smaller leader/group interaction since we had success doing so in a previous class exercise, but for some reason I was not willing to be the leader of the entire class. It is the latter here that fascinates me: although my initial instinct was to lead, why did I ultimately choose not too?
Initially, I attributed my disengagement of the exercise to "just not caring" since I had scored well on the exam. This sounds cool and hip, however, I now question: is that all there was which influenced me to withdraw?
By definition, the above would suggest that due to the frustration of this decision making process, my behavior was avoidance-withdrawal from process when no making progress is suspected (I felt that the class would not progress if it did not break into groups and plainly did not want to deal with it).
However, I generally do care. I have always been comfortable assuming responsibility in group settings. Although I did not lead the class, I did not totally disengage-I still discussed alternatives and gave input. This illustrates that my behavior could be described as accommodation-seeing issues more important to others than yourself and allowing them to make decisions for you when your interests are not critical.
It can be argued that we ultimately "succeeded" as a large class group since we did get more extra-credit points passed than other classes.
I am not satisfied with my behaviour during this process. Too often in life do I accept responsibility when something pertains to me and disregard it if it doesn't. I sometimes even justify in my mind that something doesn't pertain to me, when it in rationally does perhaps to avoid responsibility and uncertainty. This is a valuable lesson that I will consider in future decision making processes. In hindsight, I would have tried to clearly define who in the setting ultimately had the power: the group or the leader. It would then be possible to determine which decision making process to apply based on power distribution. I was in an unbiased, low-emotional position to act since the points did not apply to me, and instead of "shutting down" with self-serving behavior, it may have been more ethical for me to take a utilitarian approach for the betterment of the entire class. In a perfect world I would have implemented some kind of voting system to ensure that every voice in our class was heard - ultimately I felt that the more aggressive, perhaps more business-experienced students had the most say and influence.
Are you satisfied with the decision we ultimately agreed to? Given the time constraints, were we not "successful"? Did your score on the exam affect your behavior?
Are you satisfied with the decision we ultimately agreed to? Given the time constraints, were we not "successful"? Did your score on the exam affect your behavior?

